Your voice calls out my name;
I hear it in the distance …
Faintly crying for attention;
Deaf I am and numb to any emotions

I let you go forever in this abyss …
Your hands slip my grip!!
You fall in the endless dark …
Wrapped up in gruesome shadows

Hearing you loose life - leaving this reality;
Knowing I can’t do anything about it
Feeling somewhat useless – I cry … …
I long for your forgiveness and understanding

I wake up to the sound of rain clatters … …
I look endlessly for your presence beside me
I realize sadly it wasn’t just a bad dream
I feel alone in this cruel world!!

Hating myself for not taking your place!
Wishing for the shadows to engulf me with them;
To join you and protect you … …
All I have left here is nuisance!!

Cutting myself to feel your pain;
Blood oozing out of my open wounds…
My soul escapes with every drop -
I faint to the sound of our favourite band …

I fall on the floor lifeless;
Pale and rigid - eyes fixed in the same direction
I feel cold – yet,
I am happy…